But wait! What else happened in your life? You try to remember more.
You remember getting married, it wasn't a happy day for you. All your friends made you realize how much you'd lost since your youth. You had thought that you loved the person you were marrying but you realized as you said the vows that what you loved was the security of a steady paycheck and unwavering affection. There was no passion, no danger, no risk involved in this relationship. You had thought that by choosing the safe way, you couldn't lose. Turns out you were wrong. You felt it in your heart those last days before the wedding but you couldn't back out. You just couldn't.